TIAN AH!!! TIAN AH!!!

I am in rather good mood recently...

Nth is bothering me...

But these few days, I realised I am seriously short of money..

I need money to:

1) Pay for my insurance...

2) Buy my new yr clothes...

3) Buy new things...

4) Something extra...

AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

But where can I ever get these money??

My mum is frowning over her rental which is due on the end of this mth...

Till now, we have not earned enough to pay for the rental...

Though I get my pay on daily basis, I cant bring myself to take from my mum when I see her frowning over the rental...

Haiz...

God!! Tian ah!! Pls let my parents strike lottery this mth...

So they dun have to worry abt the new yr thingy.. the rental thingy..

My mum say when someone is down on luck, all the things one do will not succeed...

Haiz...

I really wonder whether my pocket or my wallet has a hole...

I haven spend alot recently...

But I'm rather short of money...

and yes... if anyone of u are wondering, I buy my new yr clothes using my own earned money...

I hate it when I see my parents sighing like everyday cos they have no money...

Sometimes, I really feel like scolding my grandma...

She actually spent $150 in a week's time...

Nope...

Should be less than one week...

My parents had to give her like $250 every mth...

Last sunday, my parents gave her $150 cos the day after she need to go to my dad's cousin's wedding...

In the end, she did not go for the tea-giving ceremony... She "saved" one ang bao..

In the night, she also "saved" another ang bao...

Conclusion: she did not give any ang bao..

She din even buy new clothes or new stuff to go for the wedding...

She only went to trim her hair..

Yet her $150 is gone...

So tat means her hair costs $150 when it is only a trimming??

Wahahahaha...

Haiz...

And she always start to "put up shows" when she dun have money...

She will suddenly cried, den when we asked why??

She will go on " I feel so useless, no money.. no money"

Tat is the main point of her crying...

Everytime..

Like twice per week...

How can we tanhan?? We only run a small business...

Business are going down the slope this few mths...

We cant possibly give her money whenever she cried...

I'm tired... Drained...

I have so much to trouble over...

MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When can we ever become rich??

I dun want to be born with a silver spoon in my mouth...

But at least make my parents rich..

I dun want to see them frowning over money....

Money may not be the very need... but without it, u cant meet the needs of life...

haiz...

I'm tired....

I felt tat I am useless as a daughter...

I see them frowning over those trivial and big matters...

But I cant do anything to help them...

yet I keep getting money from them..

But I dun get, I got no money to meet my own needs...

Haiz..

Sorry, readers, I am abit of emo recently...

The new yr atmosphere is influencing me..

but not to make me happy but to make me face the reality tat my parents are short of money..

Haiz....

I shall stop till here...

Hope tat the cheerful Lilian will be back soon...

Anyway, I caused someone to be rather angry.. So Sorry...

And I apologized on my mum's behalf to someone cos she talked too bluntly...

Pls dun take it to heart...

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

I have no strength to worry over u guys...

In fact, I am enjoying singlehood...

I dun want anything to interrupt my life now...

I have too much to worry...

Love?? They are just some seasonings of life...

I have other seasonings to worry over...

I'm tired...

I'm drained...

So now, just let me see the cute and cheeky side of u...

Let nature take it course...