Continued...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! HAPPY 2008!!!



I'm turning 18 this year..



So are most of my peeps...



I think 2008 should be a good year..



Cos I'm turning 18... My sis is turning 21...



haha...



I only wished tat I can get my diploma this year...



I am still looking forward to the day to leave LPS and get myself a diploma..



Just in case, u tink tat I am just merely saying..



I had planned my future..



I want to get my diploma in SIM or MDIS...



After graduating, I will join the police force and be a police...



Or maybe join the navy...



I shall see how...



I went to check the courses of both SIM and MDIS...



SIM has a course tat is starting in April...



If I miss this, I will have to wait till July..



But I guessed I can only get it in July...



My family business problem is still unsolved...



Haiz....



Ok... Let's move on...



May God bless upon me and let me get started...



2nd January 2008, Wednesday...

Mum and Dad decided to off on that day cos we are all too tired...



We need a rest...



Decided to meet up Peggy Darling...



Met her at Yishun MRT...



I could not recognise her..



Her face are so swollen...



Poor girl...



She went for surgery to operate on her lower jaw...



She is now recovering...



Her face not as swollen as tat time...



I believe she will look even prettier after she had fully recovered...



Anyway, went to Bugis cos I wanted to get a pants..



Did not get the usual jeans, denim type...



I got myself a diff one.. Cotton type...



Tried on a few...



And decided to buy a beye one...



Quite a nice one... haha



Den we went to have MOS...



Chit-chatted with her...



Haha...



Went home with Peggy...



Waited at home for Dad, Mum and Linda to fetch us for dinner....



Went to Causeway point first..



Daddy helped K.K to get a new phone...



Waited for like abt two hours for everything to be done... -_-"



Den finally get our dinner done...



Went home and waited for my IMMORTAL LOVE to be showed...



haha...



4th January 2008, Friday...

Jimmy Nah aka MC King left for the heaven...



As all of us had known, MC King left his family and friends suddenly...



I got to know before most of u...



My regular was his friend.. good friend..



He went for his funeral...



He told me when he came at night for my mum's rojak...



Haiz...



May u rest in peace, MC King....



8th January 2008, Monday...

A very weird day...



I went to work as usual...



But I just felt so uneasy the moment I started work...



Like sth going to happen... but wat is it??



Felt so troubled like never before...



Wat's the matter??



I just cant put my finger on it...



It caused the very unusual me...



Usually I will be like the usual me...



Happy or sad.. I still smile to everyone, say hello to everyone...



Talked like a chatterbox...



But tat day I just dun feel like talking, not even smiling..



I feel very empty inside me...



I seem to lose patience in everything...



Rushing every order..



Like as if I need to go somewhere....



But I just dun know wat isi it abt...



The feeling just get stronger and stronger...



Many asked wat's wrong with me??



They thought I was just in a bad mood...



I wasn't...



I just dun feel like doing anything...



The very unusual me..



I sat alone at one corner...



Din chit-chat with the rest tat day..



I never felt like tat before... Never...



I sms-ed LC and Peggy...



They both consoled me and told me ta maybe I am too tired...



And asked me not to dwell on it..



Peggy is the sweetest...



She sent me a msg which I still keep in my msg inbox..

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Remember to smile and don think too much.



Awww....... Isn't tat very nice of her??



Thanks Peggy....



And also LC.. who is always there when I complained to him...



Till now, I still dun know wat is wrong with me tat day..



Or maybe is the premonition of wat's going to happen on 10/01...



9th January 2008, Wednesday...

Went out with Peggy again...



Shopped at orchard..



I was looking for checkered tops..



But couldnt find any..



In the end, I bought a top from Topshop...



Peggy went to meet MeiHui after our day out..



Thanks again..



10th January 2008, Thursday...


Went for a hair-cut at Jing Yi's mum's salon...



She cut my hair instead of just trimming which I told her to..


But in the end, I was still ok..



Cos it's not a bad cut afterall...



Everything went on smoothly...



I was asking this table when Daddy brought the rojak down..



He told me to deliver..



I told him to cos I was busy asking the table..



He yelled and shouted at me...



I was so fed up...



I took the rojak over...



The satay ppl asked him wat's wrong??



He just yelled and screamed...



"Aiya, Ask her send only... She complain.. complain..."

" Fuck care her la.. KNNBCCB"...



I felt dishearted..



I held back my tears and went to get my order done...



As I was walking up the stairs, the ppl all asked me...



Wat did I do to make my dad so angry??



I was so fed up...



It wasnt my wrong yet I was looked as if like I am in the wrong...



I went back to our stall...



Passed them the order list...



Went straight to the toilet...



I cried like never before...



I worked so hard yet all I get was scolding when I din do anything wrong..



I dun mind getting scolded which I always get..



But must he screamed and yelled all the vuglarities in fornt of everybody...



How old am I??



If tat's wat I get for wanting to get an extra order, I am really disappointed...



I had enough..



I wiped my tears and went on working...



Uncle An saw me..



He asked me wat happened..



Again, I cried..



I rushed to the toilet..



An saw me... he asked me wat happened..



Perhaps he never see the rojak girl cried before...



I cried like 5 times tat day..



Uncle An consoled me...



I felt better...



Many saw me with red nose and puffy eyes...



I need to be alone...



To cool my mind... and not tink abt it...



I went to get my things done...


And left our stall..


I walked all the way to the 7-11...


They having constructions there...

So the surroundings are covered..

I sat down and rest my mind...

I am really tired...

Disappointed in my dad...

Rafi came over and consoled me...

Thanks to my dear bro...

He's a very nice brother...

I told him to go back Lps first..

I wanted to be alone...

I was alone...

Thinking...

The breeze cooling me down...

How I wished I can go back to when I was young...

No worries... so carefree...

Why do we have to grow up and face so many problems??

Relationship between ppl is such a mindsweep..

U keep searching but afraid of finding the bomb...

And u never know when u will find the bomb...

A bomb tat lit up all the troubles...

Haiz...

Life is such a mystery...

With lots of things to learn...

U never know wat will happen..

Unpredictable...

I am tired..

Sick and tired of my current life...

If u are envious of me cos I dun need to face studies' stress...

Den I dun mind exchanging with u...

Working for ur parents = double the stress working outside

Haiz...

Who can I blame??

Haiz...

Nobody...

I just wished tat I can leave this place..

I need a new life...

A new enviroment..

11th January 2008... Friday...

Went out with my sis..

Nth much to say...

Just tat I saw alot of ncc ppl...

Kenneth, Jia Hao, Siti... and a bunch of ncc ppl...

Some I recognised..

But I doubt they remember me...

haha...

And so....

Saturday... Sunday... and Monday...

Work Work and work...

I'm off on tuesday...

Going out with Shiyi...

Stay tuned....