Lilian's Thoughts

I'm back..

I din go for my morning jog..

Damn it! Damn it! Damn it!

It's been so long since I last went for my morning jog..

I guess I'm just plain lazy to wake up early on my only off day..

Well.. I have been feeling rather low and useless recently..

Ytd mummy was grumbling tat she still cant find a job..

I just merely complaining..

"There she goes.."

Some angelic voice goes behind..

"U dun understand.. Cos u dun contribute to this family at all.."

Ouch! It hurts..

I know I dun contribute to this family at all..

But with tat mere salary, how u expect me to contribute to this house?

I know u all wan me to go get other jobs..

But wat other jobs?

Stewardess again?

Come on la.. How can I ever get in Stewardess?

I just cant get support from u ppl..

I already heed ur advice..

I'm applying for other jobs..

Wat more u wan me to do?

I dun earn as much as u do..

I know u are so capable..

U are supporting this household...

I had enough of "If i have this figure, I would have go for stewardess.."

Enough la! Stewardess.. Stewardess..

Ya.. It's such a glamourous job.. with high pay..

So? Not everyone desire for it..

I'm tired of it..

Yup.. I appeared as if I bo chap..

But do u know how hurtful each time u said tat I'm useless?

"U dun need to pay for anything.."

"Aiya.. So wat if it's service leader? U are still earning tat little.."

Somehow.. This time round.. I just feel wat u say..

I realised I'm really useless..

I appeared to be so capable at work..

But when it comes to here, I just seem to be such a failure..

God..

I'm tired of all this..

I just need a shoulder..

I just need a support..

All I know now is I cant stop those tears rolling down..

=(