Lilian's Thoughts

I wonder if U guys feel or encounter such situation:

Sometimes, I wonder if ppl take me for granted..

Sometimes, I wonder wat ppl exactly treat me as, in their heart..

But I just realised tat I seem to be sort of an ATM to some of them..

Just like a sparetyre to some of them..

Whenever I receive calls or sms-es from a close friend or a friend I haven seen for long..

Deep inside, I feel so glad..

Thinking to myself, "Looks like I'm not being forgotten.."

"Even though I haven seen them for so long.."

Yet wat I get was a mere..

"Ah Lian, got 20 to lend me?"

"Lilian, can transfer money to me? I broke liao.."

My heart often softened..

I will lend them the money..

And often, after tat, I would not get a single sms or call from them..

The next time I get a call or sms from them, will be the time when they need money..

I'm kind of disappointed..

I realised tat the only time they think of me, is when they need my help..

Den wat are friends for?

Arent friends supposed to be put in our heart?

Arent friends supposed to show care and concern?

I'm feeling kind of down now..

Apart from this..

I just realised tat it's been abt a month since I left LPS..

Every morning, when I go to work, I will think of the past in LPS..

And I find myself, staring in a daze..

Looking at the images in my phone..

I miss them loads..

And often tell my colleagues at work..

Abt my buddies, my little brothers, the LPS mates, the everything of LPS..

Yet there is no call..

There is no sms..

From the ppl I badly miss..

From the ppl tat I put in an important place in my heart..

Asking abt my recent life..

Showing their care and concern..

Is it true tat when a person left, he/she will be eventually forgotten?

Perhaps this is just the game of life..

Lilian, wake up la..

U arent as important as u think..

Sometimes, it's not tat ppl take u for granted..

It's U who place them in an important place in ur heart..

=(