Lilian's Thoughts

It's 3.34am and I just reached home..

I went out with Rumai, to Bugis, earlier on..

Den I went to LPS...

I was supposed to go out with the LPS mates..

But my dad din allow..

And coincidentally, he was also at LPS..

So I got to come back home with him..

I dun know how to explain how I feel now..

Mixture of feelings..

I was feeling rather pissed just now..

To them:

I realised tat I have always been honest with u all..

But no matter wat, u all just dun wanna give me the benefit of doubt..

I know u all are concerned..

U all are worried tat I will mix with the wrong clinque of friends..

And I know u never trust me to go out with the guys at LPS..

But I always know how to choose the correct friends..

And I'm not afraid to say, till now, I have done anything tat is wrong to me..

I have not done anything shameful..

So.. pls just give me the benefit of doubt..

Ahhh..

Can I just grow up faster?

To him:

I dun know wat else can I say..

U showed love and concern those few days..

Yet.. now..

It's such an on and off thing..

I wonder wat else to do..

I know I'm not supposed to put in too much hope..

And I keep telling myself not to expect too much from u..

Yet I find myself looking like an idiot..

And I'm still waiting..

I kept questioning myself..

"Lilian, how long do u wan to wait?"

"Lilian, Wat if his promise comes back for him?"

"Lilian, will he just throw u to the back of his mind den?"

Arghh!!

Bad things befall one after another..

Fuck this world of mine!

Dun wanna tink anymore!

=(