Lilian's Thoughts

I went to the 7 eleven yesterday..

I din join the boys' talking session, as usual..

I bought my current favorite drink and sit alone there..

I tried to get things out of my mind..

Should I??

God is making a fool of me..

So be it la..

Recently, I had this thought in mind..

To quit job at LPS..

I will go get a proper job outside..

To gain working experience..

And also to save up some money..

I will give myself a time limit..

Be it 2 or 3 years..

And if after tat, I still think studying is the best..

I will go for my diploma..

On one hand,

I dun know how to bring it up to my parents..

I dun know if I should just leave like tat..

If I really do, who's going to work for them??

Will that person be up to expectations??

On the other hand,

If I go get a job outside..

I will be able to help by contributing to the family income..

I will be able to get freed form LPS..

To see the outside world..

Wat should I do??

Can someone pls give me some advice??

I realised tat my determination is getting rather weak recently..

Lilian..

U cannot take it up again..

Resist it..

Resist it..

Arghh!!

Give me a break pls..

=(

Ur sms popped out suddenly just now..

"Let's be strangers la.. My apology.. This is the only way out.."

I felt so confused..

Wat's up with the strangers' thing again??

I told U tat we already made each other clear..

U told me it's ur own decision..

Suddenly, I feel like giving a slap..

Do U call urself a guy??

Wat's up with the strangers' thing again??

I thought we already compromised tat we will be just friends..

Yet I dun have the mood to argue with u..

I'm tired with such a guy like u..

I just wish to know wat's up with the strangers' thing out of a sudden...

Tell me when u feel like it..

=(