Lilian's Thoughts

Now I understand the meaning of "Sometimes, things are better left unsaid.."

I totally can experience the feeling of "bad things befall one after another.."

I said out all those tat are supposed to be left unsaid..

My heart sank instantly upon reading ur reply..

So I got everything wrongly..

I was not at ease throughout the day, the whole night..

I felt so malu for expressing wrongly..

But...

Ur sms-es at night, got me confused at first..

Den I realised tat I din get things wrongly..

U admitted tat U denied everything..

Cos U are not ready to lose ur freedom..

Actually, it's the same for me..

Perhaps I just dun like to keep things in my heart..

Yet I'm not ready for anything..

U said tat U dun know how to face me..

I told u to treat me like a stranger if u feel awkward..

Yet I know I'm lying to myself, lying to u..

I wanted to send a sms after tat, to say tat I din mean wat I said..

I din wan us to behave like strangers..

Yet my ego-ness held me back..

Perhaps..

This is the only option..

I dun wan us to feel awkward..

Arghh!!

Bad things do befall one after another..

I know ppl are concerned..

Perhaps they dun know which is the right topic to ask and talk abt..

S****** is my biggest "cannot talk and ask abt" question right now..

Yet in straight 3 days, ppl kept asking me this question..

Can I bang my head on the wall pls??

Perhaps..

Sometimes, things are better left unsaid..

Perhaps..

Sometimes, things are better left unknown..

Perhaps...

Perhaps...

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