Lilian's thoughts

Just came back from work..

I'm shagged...

My parents facing problems again..

It's all abt money, money and money...

Fuck!!

Why cant this S-11 thingy just come and put its ass in my parents pocket??

They are in need of tat...

I have done all I can to help them...

But I know tat's only temporary...

Who can I blame??

Sometimes I feel like calling u and just scold u for doing all this to my mum...

Sometimes I just hope u din pull my mum into this business, this pile of shit...

But now, u already left..

It's been a year...

A year since u dumped all this shit onto my mum...

A year since u caused me to be dragged into this shit...

U were the one who persuaded her to join and manage this businesss together..

U were the one who said tat U wants to renovate the stall and continue doing this business..

Yet U were the one who just said tat U wan to quit...

And U WERE THE ONE WHO DUMPED ALL THIS SHIT TO MY MUM!!

I just wished tat U are the one who's facing all this troubles now...

Because of u, my mum have to work like a cow everyday...

Beacuse of u, my mum worked till her feets are swollen...

Because of u, I have to work here and cannot study...

Now u can jolly well enjoy ur bloody life with ur family everyday when u finished work...

Wat abt my mum??

It's wrong for her to cherish sister's ties...

A BIG FUCKING MISTAKE TO TREAT U AS A SISTER!!

WAT A BLOODY FUCKING SISTER U ARE!!

I JUST WISH I CAN SHOUT ALL THIS RIGHT AT UR FACE!!

UR BLOODY FUCKING FACE!!

IT'S ALL UR FAULT!!

UR FUCKING FAULT!!

I'm tired...

I'm shagged...

I'm in need of money..

God, pls let my parents solve their problems...

I will do anythings for u...

Even if it will take my life..

It hurts me to see them frowning for money everyday...

Anyone, Just give me money and I will do anything for u...

ANYTHING...

I need a shoulder to lay on...

I need someone's hug...

I want to cry out loud...

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