Horrible life

I'm back...

Just came back from work..

Went to Geylang just now to makan...

Have been to Geylang these few days..

My dad's friend from Thailand lived in a hotel there..

So we sent him back every night..

Yesterday there was a police car there..

Nabbing gamblers...

Geylang also well known for its "red-light district"...

I even saw a guy giving money to the "ma-fu"...

My god!!

The guy is so young...

Haiz...

Life's like tat..

Different ppl lead different lives..

Anyway, Lenice came to look for me just now...

How sweet can she get??

She knows I'm not feeling quite good recently...

So she came and give a listening ear..

Thanks, Girl...

Seeing her makes me think of my studies..

I dun know how long I have been procastinating my studies??

Two years I tink...

When can I ever go for my diploma??

When can I join the police force???

Should I go for my private diploma den join the police force??

Or should I just join the police force first when I reached 18??

I'm in a dilemna...

I dun know why...

But recently ppl have been asking me when I gonna go for my studies...

My parents are the ones tat are holding me back...

I cant leave with a peace of mind...

I'm tired of working there...

I do love the life there...

But not the extent of working there forever..

I have to move forward..

Talking abt LPS...

I realised tat I kind of drifted apart from my usual clinque of friends...

I used to be sitting at one particular stall..

Chit-chatting with the bunch of guys there...

But recently we dun seem to have any topic...

I kind of drifted away from them..

I can stand there and look like an idiot..

We dun really talk now..

Haiz..

I miss the days where they will go on and on with their "girl-girl.. girl-girl"..

I have lots to chat with them..

I dun know wat's wrong..

I dun know whether is it tat I am sensitive or wat..

But I realised tat some ppl have been avoiding me..

When he smiled at me, he looks like he's being forced to...

Pls!!

If u have a prob with me, come and tell me straight away..

Dun keep it in ur heart...

I feel easily upset when my friends dun talk to me suddenly..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I need a break..

A break away from LPS...

I'm tired of my life now..

It's work, sleep, eat, internet, shop...

I want to study..

But when can I??

I tink wat they said is right..

Maybe I'm too over abt it..

I am the one who wanted to wait...

U din tell me to..

I shouldnt expect anything from u..

But now all I wan is to clear the air with u...

Like wat u say..

I dun know wat I see in u..

I dun really know u..

So now..

Do u wan to start by being friends or wat...

I'm tired...

If u still dun wish to come forward and speak a word..

I have nth to say..