Hey... I dun know how I feel...

Ello people.. update ya a bit ah.. hmmm.. today wake up at around 0605.. haha.. den go school and same old thing la.. kind of like sick and tired of school.. omg.. I am super afraid tat I cannot pass prelims.. no.. scared sia.. u will know it if u were me.. haiz.. just now F&N.. haiz.. sian.. course work again.. a bit boring la.. haiz.. sometimes feel tat there is always unfairness... been crying a lot.. think I am wounded in the sense of my brain.. I just think tat I am sad.. I feel so damn stressed.. so damn sick and tired of my life.. do not be surprised to find me one day.. in the woodbridge.. cos I am tired of my life.. I dun wan to be surrounded by different pressure.. I will definitely bursted one day.. dun tink tat I always laugh and act like crazy woman with my friends.. It does not mean tat I am happy.. I just dun wan to show my feelings.. I dun wan ppl to see my sad side.. I dun wan ppl to treat me good cos I am sad.. I dun wan my friends to worry.. sorry.. I just cannot tahan.. I wanted very much to go all the way down and forget abt this stupid and idiotic world.. it sucks.. to me.. but I dun wan to be look as a stupid coward.. pls dun ask me wat happened.. though I really need someone to talk to.. but.. trust me.. I will still be a bit fine.. I tink stress.. is the mastermind.. feel tat there is no one hu is willing to listen to me.. I mean as in at my family.. sian.. is all I can say.. I feel so stressed.. so bored.. there I go again.. crying.. I sucks.. seriously.. I hate this Lilian.. I want to go back to when I am young.. I dun wanna grow up and face all this pressures.. I hate it.. I hate my life... I hate myself!!!